So today is my birthday...I am heading North...means up. I am happy to be Old, it feels good..and on top of that I am feeling more respectful towards myself and more precious to me...Sounds like a egoistic person's writing, right? But no, I am feeling it from the down hill...which is earth...he he he I am in weird skeptical mood today...Little Nostalgic too.
So India, my country of origin has 12 and half hour time of time difference from US the A. March 27th started when I was still living March 26th. My tons and tons of friends started calling me, wishing me online and it was just a bit weird and crazy. I was sitting in my office and Friends are saying hey your special day started, although I knew what they meant, but it was weird...in the sharp sunny day I felt as if I lived a mid night...is it stupid? Guess so...
Then I went to work and the moment it was morning in India and my late evening, I started getting messages and calls again, wishing me loving me and hoping to see me soon...I felt nostalgic, and I started cooking to keep my mind off those thoughts.
My time(Pacific - Canada) mid night came, I opened a beer bottle...sitting all alone in front of laptop...and tears came to give me company. I was alone and sad and happy and again weird. I told a friend who was online to wish me as now my time my birthday started and there is no one around me to wish cos of thousands of reason including its a late hour in US on working day & its a lunch time in Dubai and India. He smiled and wished me. I felt better. 15 minutes after mid night I got few calls from Dubai and India...after that I looked at my today and went to sleep.
I woke up with Call from a close friend, who is in US the A as she wanted to be the very first one to wish me...I assured her its her who has woke me up so its you who is the very first. She was happy, she wished me the great day and I went back to cuddling, but I could not get the chance to enjoy that cuddling.. This was at 6 in the morning, and until 9 I was all busy with attending phone calls from UK, UAE and India...I loved the attention and wishes form all over the world...what a thing is this phone call, you are far far away but still you are so close and same feeling I get with internet.....My parents called me thrice to wish me still I feel like talking to them constantly...still I wish I could spend evening with them...I miss my Family today.Its just afternoon and I have no clue what my evening is going to be. I am not sure if I will do something or I will just sit in the corner and connect to my friends who have made me feel special...I am happy to be Old and to get lovely gifts from friends and family..Thank you everybody...Thank you lovely People...I am still getting wishes from you and love you have been pouring on me is just too sweet....I am in US the A but I am all over the world with my friends...
Today is St. Patrick's day and we all are suppose to wear green...as it is known as green holiday too, as green is associated with Irish people and this is a Irish holiday (not in US but in Ireland)
So what is Saint Patrick's day? This festival marks the day as St Patrick's day, he was a short, cute, little old man who introduced Christianity to Irish people. Irish people celebrate this day spending time together with each other and participate in parade marked in the name of Saint Patrick. Americans celebrate it by wearing green cloths. It is a saying that if you dont wear green on St. Patrick's day then you will get pinched by others.
This festival remind me of two festivals from Punjab, one is Baisakhi and another is Holi....both actually come during spring, pretty similar time as St. Patrick's day. Baisakhi is the birth day of Sikhism and Holi is harvest festival & also known as festival of colors. During Baisakhi Sikhs participate in parade and religious acts....and during Holi, Indian normally wear white or light color cloths and then play with colors, so by the end of the day their cloths are all colorful, which represent love and fun side of life. I am wearing a green jacket today, and I noticed almost everyone is wearing a green as part of their cloths or jewelery or shoes....well no one want to get pinched afterall. One of my co worker is wearing all black, I asked her why are you not wearing green then she looked around and said why is everyone wearing green? We all smiled and pinched her...it was funny and cute.
People have been telling me that this festival has no meaning what so ever (as much as I understood) but this weekend when I was at the flower shop a lady bought all green and white flowers & balloons to celebrate this day with her family. That has made me curious, I want to see that how do they celebrate it.
Well, looks like I will have to make some Irish friends, so I can enjoy the celebrations and learn more than what is written in papers.
I saw this video while doing some work on youtube...and now I watch it everyday, not because it is wonderfully made but because it keeps me on my track about future.
I cant sleep sometimes, just cant do it. I think and think and keep on thinking...if I am in bad mood thoughts go towards sad and negative feelings and if its a good mood it start with wonderful feelings, then I feel what that moment is missing and then why cant I share the moment with someone special and then starts the sad moment...sometimes I just leave thoughts at one corner of home and move on in life, I watch TV, movie or something which keeps me away from net and from negative thoughts.
Well, seriously.......I need to sleep more. I haven't slept more than 4 hours last night and 7/8 nights before that I slept hardly 5/6 hours each night. I have heard about getting sick due to lack of sleep, but I am feeling fine. am I doing something wrong for future?
Well, I want to sleep but not in the influence of Alcohol or pills, so kaise soun? Everyone says try Meditation, but then I need practice to reach to the point where I can call it off or on to sleep and thoughts...Kaise jee...Time hota to main kamaskam jaldi nahin uthti thi, hai ki nahin, tab to neend aise hi poori ho jaati na...I used to sleep pretty well in India and now here I cant...hmmmm anyways, am confused now...should I continue to write or stop? If I do what more I should add and if I dont then what would be the reason...oh well am double confused.